Monday, October 17, 2005

as usual.. sunday is my studying day...
afterwhich.. i start watching jap drama..
is the japanese versions of ER.. cant recall the title right now.. =x

there's one scene where 1 of the doctor's fiance is dying
and suddenly his heart stopped beating...
and the doctos tried to use a heart machine to shock his heartbeat
back to normal.. but they failed..

the sound of the shock reminds me of my ahgong's situation 5 years ago..
he was in a critical condition in CGH's ICU...
got a call from doc, rushed back to CGH,
stood outside his bed in ICU..
and we heard the heart machine's shocking sound..
after awhile, curtains drawn, doctors and nurses came out
and pronounced him dead...
drama right?

anyway, enough of my story telling...
the point is that scene in the show touched me...
i can feel the helplessness of the doc
as she watched her fiance's life slowly slipped away..
just like my case, cant do anything only to watch my ahgong fade away...
till now, he still lingers in my memory..

although he's gone.. but he will always be alive in my heart!
ahgong 万岁 !!